Been Thinking

I have been letting my thoughts wander more than usual and a couple of thoughts keep coming up. Like, why is it that I could not get a temporary handicapped parking sticker while I was on maternity leave. If I am short-term or not, I have been labeled as disabled and should be allowed to park closer at the mall and grocery store.

In light of the election year politics, I have also been wondering a lot about how my faith fits with my politics. Since moving to this region of the county it has become clear to me that I am the worse "Conservative Christian" in the country. I am pro-choice, anti-death penalty, anti-war, pro-gay marriage, and a proponent for taxing rich people fairly. I am also for the separation of church and state with regard to matters of law. I am, however, in favor of allowing prayer in schools (as long as it is not mandatory) and for the allowance of government funding of faith based community programs. I just don't understand how someone can be pro-life and then think it is OK to execute someone. I am not pro-choice because I agree with the choice, but I don't want young girls making poor decisions in back alleys without proper medical care. I also don't know how you expect to win people to Christ by discriminating against and hating on them. It is our job to love and His job to fix. If homosexuality is wrong, He will take care of it. If you really believe Him to be God then you believe He is capable, right? So, stay in your lane and leave the judgement to Him.

I have also been trying to figure out when feminist became a dirty word. Why is it wrong to believe that women should aspire to be more than a vapid, big breasted, trash talking, expression of juvenile sexual fantasy laid out on TV and magazines for public scrutiny and consumption? If that is what you want to be I can't stop you, but what about the other side of the coin. What about showing women who make money because they went to school, develop medicines, and change lives. I have nothing against Kardashians, but I would love to see a famous woman on my TV who did not do it with the"use what you got to get what you want" (to quote Playas Club) mentality. I am over it. I just want little girls to dream of being something real again. Even if it is being a housewife. I want her to understand that means actually being someone's wife and living in the house with them and taking care of the house and those who live in it. Housewife is a real job when there are no cameras. I am a feminist. I think every woman should chose her own path and not be penalized for her choices, as long as they were made freely. I don't, however, agree with the one sided portrayal of womanhood. From my television vantage point you are either version of Paris Hilton (the size, age, and ethnicity might be different, but they are all the same if you think about it.) or you are Rachel Maddow (she is great, but there is a lot of grey between those two.).

This is usually the point where things get to deep for me and I start to wonder which character in Once Upon A Time I would be. I would love to think that I would be one of the princesses, but I am starting to think that I will end up being Artie/Jimminy Cricket and that makes me sad and I quit thinking.