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I would like to start by saying, "Welcome back," to my collar bone. It is nice to see you again.  I can hardly wait until my abs come out of hiding.

Yesterday was not my best day. I have been having one of those weeks where I keep letting little things get to me. I knew it was bad when I truly considered keying the car of the guy who stole my parking space on Tuesday morning. I would like to thank God for reminding me that I am an adult and that keying a car is not appropriate adult behavior, but will send me to adult jail. I would also like to thank JJ Santana for driving by as I got out of my car because it also helped me realize that throwing a tantrum and keying a car in the company parking lot would be embarrassing.

I think I actually reached my limit yesterday (that is right, thoughts of keying a car were not the low point) when in the midst of my holding back tears and holding in screams of "I QUIT" I got a Jesus pep talk from my father- King of the Backsliders. Here is a man who has not been either in church or awake in church for months giving me the "you need Jesus" talk and he was right.

If I am going to continue to work at my current office, I am going to need to double down on the Jesus time. So that is my new plan. My strategy is pretty simple. I will get at least one Bible verse for each of my recurring issues.

The next time someone steals my spot or lets the elevator close even though they see me coming, I am going remember that :Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord."Romans 12:18-20

The next time I am feeling down about how I look because of some idiot comment. I will remember that "I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well."Psalm 139:13-15 

The next time I open one of my many bills or get another "courtesy" balance notification instead of questioning and making myself crazy with worry I am going to take a more zen approach and remember "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life^[a]? ²⁶ Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest? Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. " Luke 12:25-27

I hope this helps me, but I decided to share because I hope it helps someone else calm down too. I know that I have worked to hard and am too far removed from my ghetto roots to go to jail now. It is like I said before, people don't have to believe, but they need to thank God that I do.