I just started this new job about a month ago and I have just one question. Is it too soon for me to start looking for another job? I know that only a month at this job makes me look kind of unstable, but I am not sure I can keep. This up.
I drive over an hour everyday to get there and an hour back and then when I am there I am not exactly doing what I want to do. I am pretty sure that my boss finds some new report or audit tool every week to add to my to do list. The other therapists are not bad other than a little drama and a lot of anxiety.
The real issue is that I am not working with an ideal population. My mother was a teacher and my sister is a teacher. There was one thing I knew for certain when I went to college. I did NOT want to be a teacher. Doing group therapy with pre-teens, most with ADHD or some form of cognitive delay, feels a lot like teaching and it sucks. Yesterday solidified that thought for me. I had a great family session with an adult and have spent most of the week on the adult inpatient side. Then I left there and went to work with the kids. I spent most of the day redirecting and explaining concepts to people whose concentration medications had clearly worn off, like an overworked and underpaid teacher.
I knew it was bad when I stayed late to finish my notes just so that I could start my day on the adult side today. The simple truth is that I even prefer the adults with thought disorders to working with children. Bring on the paranoia and delusions. I still prefer mood disorders and substance abuse, but I am learning that anything is better than kids. I was so burned out and tired when I left that the only clear thought on my mind was...
Is it really too soon to start looking for another job?
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