I Don't Want It

Those are Suga's new favorite words. If she can't get he way she will pout, cross her arms and say with conviction something like, "I don't want night night." That also reminds me of something. Why do we say everything to kids twice- night night, eat eat, yum yum. That is so weird to me, but I do it too.

Her birthday is coming up and I am faced with a problem that I never really had before. I don't know who to invite. She is having a little kid party and I don't really know people with kids her age. I never really had that issue with LoLo because the kids I know are close enough in age to invite usually. On top of that I really feel weird about presents. I don't want people to feel like they have to get her a gift. I invite people for fun- not gifts. She is a LOT of things, but "in need" is not one of them. This is a issue for me because we don't get invited to more than two parties and so I don't feel like we ever return the favor and that bothers me. Would it be weird to give a gift with the invite (giving a Toy'sRUs card might be seen as giving a card for them to buy her a gift and that would be too weird, even for me) or have a couple of presents at her party for other kids. I don't know, but I am thinking about it.

My next concern is LoLo. I wanted to invite one of his school friends, but he is at that age where everyone is learning to be friends and inviting one means inviting all. That won't bother Jenna because, like I said, she currently does not have any friends to invite, but it will bother her Daddy, my sweet Husband, who would really appreciate me staying on budget this year. Inviting LoLo's whole class is not a good way to do that. Although maybe I should invite that girl he kicked in the mouth the other day as a peace offering.

That is a lot to think about, but maybe the hardest part is wrapping my mind around the fact that my little girls will be turning two soon. She is getting ready to move out the nursery and into a big girl room and big girl bed. It is crazy to me and find myself holding her tight, trying get the last of her baby smell etched in my mind and thinking about how much she is going to keep changing and I find myself wanting to say the same thing she does.

I don't want it!