Resume

I hav made it clear that I want a new job, but I have not made a concerted effort to get one. It is just such a daunting task to me. Updating and tweaking my résumé is akin to torture for me. The idea of going on interviews I disheartening. I mean, really, it was hard enough to get these people to like me. Now you want me to resume my search with a new résumé in hand and smile on my face. Boo to that.

I don't know if you are anything like me when it comes to interview prep, but I tend to pick out m perceived weaknesses in the hopes that I will be prepared to address them should the other person pick up on them. I am no fool. I am not going to point them out, but I can't pretend like they don't exist and go in unprepared. Thi may sound like a good plan ,but it does nothing to ease insecurities. It can also be as equally frustrating as fixing my résumé.

Then there is the whole idea of being able to market yourself. If I had wanted to learn how to sell myself, I would have gone into prostitution. I know there are some people who love a sles pitch, but I am not one of them and my intense dislike of people putting on the game face for me makes it extremely difficult for me to do it to others. Then I am just getting on my own nerves and that is stupid.

I can totally see how people stay at a job for twenty or thirty years. They are like me. I a person who does not want a lot of fuss or confusion. I want to be stable and taken care of by a company that acknowledges and utilizes my skills. I just want to be somewhere I can do what I love and not be mistreated. It seems so simple, yet has so far proven too much to ask.