Back at It

On Friday, after I had been at work for an hour, my boss came and told me that she had given me the day off as I requested weeks ago. "Why are you here?"

Me- because you did not approve my vacation request

Yes I did. I gave it back to you.

No

I sent it back to you

I never got it

Why didn't you come talk to me about it.

Silence ( I did not think it was a good time to say that I sent an email, asked about it a meeting and went and read the time calendar that you keep on your desk.) Can I leave now?

Well that is up to you and your team. 

i left after my meeting and some typing, but I think this is just another example of how far things have gotten out of control. I am constantly working to keep my mouth shut. I don't know what I can do. I have been eating to keep myself from talking, but that is counter productive to my diet and my fast. So, I now that my mouth is no longer occupied by food, what can I do to keep it shut?

I went in late yesterday after taking my little boy to the dentist. He did an awesome job. There was another little boy who had to be held down while he got his teeth cleaned. LoLo looked at me and with the straightest face said, "He is not going to get a toy." I would normally miss moments like this because I work the worse hours ever, but I think I am done with that. 

I have been looking and I don't seem to qualify for much in my field, but I can always go back to being an admin. That may be what I have to do. I don't have the money for private practice and I find that other people are not as serious as I am about taking that leap anyway. 

I do know that I am done putting my children on the back burner for a job, especially one that tries to make me seem crazy. I know I would not have shown up to work if I had known in advance because I had been complaining for the last 3 weeks about her not approving my time.  It helped me prove my point when another colleague acknowledged the same had happened to her. It was almost as good as when she told me I could not take a day because other people had been approved and neither of those people had asked for time off. (That is right, I checked. Then she told me it was automatic because of one person's birthday. Well, my birthday is next week, we will see if I get the special day off treatment.)

For now, I will just have to get back to looking and sending out resumes. Jigga says we need to take "Do Better" into 2013. She is right. I need to for real do better when it comes to my job situation. I make really bad choices. Not as bad as my boyfriend choices in high school, but still not stellar. 

So I am back at it and hopefully this time I will get it right.