I have been working really hard to get healthy. I realized somewhere in the middle of my weight loss that this was about more than my pants. I needed to also reevaluate the example I was setting for my kids. I did not grow up eating poorly and I did not want them to grow up that way. I have watched documentaries and read books and while I am not totally sure what to do, I am trying to get my family started. That was until I started to skid down the carbohydrate slippery slope.
It starts out innocent enough. You eat a "special" occasion cupcake/cookie and then maybe a couple of pancakes, but if you are me, the next thing you know you are eating pasta and cookies at the same time while thinking about toast. Don't judge me. I don't know how it keeps happening to me. I would love to blame it on food companies and say that the chemical compounds have been manipulated in a way to foster addiction and dependence, but as a therapist I know how to overcome addictions. I explain it to people everyday.
One of the things that stops me from changing is fear of what I will become. Food is a big part of life and I don't want to be excluded from that. I don't want to be the Wierd one not eating at the get together or the lecturer who says "ugh, don't you know what they put in those things?" Nobody wants to hang out with that person and I don't want to be her. So I indulge "just a little", only it is not long before I am eating a donut after eating a muffin for breakfast.
I was doing really well and I think that I can easily get back on track. I think I just need to be more forgiving of my slip ups and more disciplined with my "cheats" because that slippery slope thing is real.
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